I believe the Internet is an information source, not a lifestyle choice.

Here is the deal… I was dead bored today… the boredom continues… a heavy dinner, 3mini pizzas, huge bowl of ice cream and a heavy doze of caffeine (mixed with a little coffee) to keep me awake, for studying, for the test I have to take tomorrow morning…wait… today morning… in 6 hours… I cant sleep, neither can I concentrate on studies… I mean who the hell is going to use the process of inverse Z transform ever?? Not like anyone is going to use Z transform, but at least it was easier… nevertheless I slept on my bed thinking I will get up early and study… that was 2 hours ago… now… I am like a walking zombie who is sitting in front of the computer…

So I was thinking on how to better utilize my time… I have like an hour before I was supposed to “get up”… so I figured I’ll use the time to improve my website… I logged on, only to realize that when I made it last… it was perfect… no other improvements could possibly be made… unfortunately due to my anonymous stance I cant tell you the url… but… take my word for it… It Rocks!

So I decided to come up with many wonderful wacky witty wone (that’s one) liners.. sort of like bumper stickers, only longer.. these are things on the top of my head… might be that I may have heard them elsewhere before… so if you’re placing a claim on anyone of these, then write a detailed description of how/where/what/when you came up with it…the circumstances that led you to that line… any evidence…and no your moms testimony wouldn’t count…and then print the document and throw it in the trash…anyway here goes my attempt to be ever so funny…

1. Mr. Humpty D was pushed…government conspiracy!

2. Nobody dies… everyone is buried/burnt alive!

3. I am not fat! I try my best to fit into my rather large clothes.

4. It was actually a banana which fell on Newton’s’ head!! But the apple farmers had better ideas… they used their marketing skills…

5. There are just 6 colours…anyone (women generally) who thinks otherwise … well they are plain ol stupid…

6. When a milk carton says 25% extra, it means u have 25% more water !

7. When an edible item is mentioned as fat free… it’s indeed correct… they give u fat, absolutely free with it…

8. When a used car sales representative says, “This is the best car in the universe”… before buying it… consider why he does not own it.

9. When buying a new mobile which can store 1000 txt messages…consider this… do u know enough people who’ll send you so many sms’s.

10. Well that’s all I got actually.. But a round figure would bring me peace.. so long folks… wish me luck for the test I have to go through tomorrow… my bench-mates are counting on me… lucky for me they don’t know what I am upto... But that’s just our little secret, shhhhh….

Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are.

A simple line by “ Houssaye “ , I don’t know who he is… I do not know when he said it… but when I read the quote… I just sat there… thinking… thinking whom I love…rather what I love…
What am I passionate about? What do I want from this world? I sat there thinking, just one thing I really love… the one thing that would make me complete… no, it is not the “perfect love” . I really don’t know…
Would money make me happy? Maybe, I would never know…If yes how much…( To actually test it, wire donations to visa account no E-39410 ).. a man is never satisfied… I just read my own wish list… the one on the right side menu… I bragged about having “perfect friends” … the “perfect lover” … and you know what… nothing… the love was gone… the friends turned their backs… the two things on the very top of my list… gone … as sunshine on a rainy day… at least my cell was fine ( for people worried about it with regards to my previous post, she handled it well ) … but as I quoted “upgrade my cell” … I couldn’t believe what I wanted… I was so ashamed about what I wanted ( my wish list ) that I immediately took it down.
Awesome marriage, perfect job… now what is perfect? Does a perfect job mean a really good salary? Something you love doing? Something that will put bread on the table? Something that you are passionate about? I wonder how many people can look me in the eye and say “yeah! I love doing what I do… cause that’s my passion… that’s what I was born to do” … I really want to hear that…it might give me some hope. Enough hope that I could say those same words one day to a really confused kid…
I hate people telling me that I work here, I work there, I get paid this much, I am so happy with my new job… it really saddens me ( not because I don’t want them to be happy, but)… these people grabbed the first opportunity they had…never gave their dreams a chance…Could you honestly look into a mirror and say “Yes, this is what I wanted” … I bet you couldn’t. Everybody when they were kids used to say… I want to be a doctor, save people… I want to join the army, protect my country, I want to be an astronaut, see the world from outside, I want to be a pilot,fly into the clouds... How many did follow their dreams? Yeah how many?
I don’t want to be one of them… I want to follow my dreams… I don’t want to play it safe, taking a pathetic 9 to 5 job sitting behind a stupid computer… I really don’t.
I want to give my dreams, my passion, another chance, and then another one after that…

And I sat there wondering what I love so much…the voice inside me reminded me…yeah… I love the sea… I just don’t know why… the first time I saw it ( back when I was 10 on a family vacation ) I just fell in love with it… I couldn’t care less about the pony back rides or the cotton candy or the delicious chaat places that bordered the beach…I just kept gazing at the waters…
It has been quite a few years since I’ve seen the coastline… but the smell of the ocean air… as strong as if it were just following me everywhere… I am not a poet else I would have engraved countless lines about the ocean on a hard wood… poets write so many verses about the sun, the moon, the rain, etc etc… making full use of thesaurus ( :P, I assume )… but not me… if I love something… there is no way a few lines could describe how I feel… no matter how beautifully fabricated it might be.

As the saying goes, “Those who wish to sing always find a song.”… I have a song! I just need somebody to listen… My dreams is to work close to the ocean… as close as it can be… maybe I will… maybe I wont.. However, the truth is… I will keep trying…cause you know…I am not a dreamer.. I just dream………

3 Strikes and you're out! Atleast if you're playing baseball..

Today -
1. Got up at 9:25 when i was supposed to meet my friends at 10 Am
2. Slept for another 30 min figuring that if i am late anyway, let me make most use of my time. :P
3. Took almost an hour to get ready. ( skipped breakfast, the most important meal of the day )
4. Took the longest route possible ( Taking account the fact that it might be less crowded )
5. I was wrong!
6. Reached college only by 11:30
7. Lied to my friends that i was given wrong information.
8. They didn't buy it.
9. Went to a place where they offered unlimited food at dirt cheap rates.
10. Ate a lot. ( what else did ya expect )
11. After that went to this really amazing newly opened coffee shop. The waiters were wearing really expensive clothes.
12. After looking at the menu, i figured that i was somehow paying for them.
13. Drank a lot. ( well this i don't think you expected ) . Played the word building game. Came fourth ( wow clap-clap ) . There were only 6 of us.
14. All this with my 'X' and friends
15. Went 3.5 hours early for my doctors appointment, asked them if they could advance it. ( i wont use the word prepone as it doesn't exist )
16. They didn't. Waited for 1.5 hours for a period of 4 min with my doctor.
17. Came back home and changed and went for my workout ( i needed that ) .
18. Went to sister's house, she recently came back from a trip to Singapore.
19. Who would have guessed she likes chocolates too.
20. Collected all the goodies she got for me.( Food included.. chocolates i mean.. )
21. Spent exactly 2 min on the treadmill. Maybe 3. Didn't time it. Lost 4 Calories.
22. Came back home. Switched on my Computer.E-mailed 'X' . :-) . It was due.
23. Stomach Ache and bad Cold.
24. Heavy doses of 'Pheniramine Maleate'.
25. My Mobile Chat buddy lost her cell.. Can't message her now.
26. Ended up chatting with 'X' .
27. Dropped my cell on the floor. She ( i consider that ) is fine though.Little bruised. But she is a strong girl, she'll get over it.
28. Am Blogging neglecting the fact that i have loads of work to do.
29. Somehow its gonna effect me in the long run.But hey who cares.. Got to keep the fan(s) happy.
30. Its still 9:30........

Each morning as I awaken you're the reason I smile, You're the reason I love.

Today was one of the hardest day of my life... I had to send the following three messages ( mobile text messages ) to all my friends..

" Hey all, Sad news... ***** and me have decided to call it quits.. Not because the love has diminished or something..but..these things happen...We have enjoyed our journey together, and will cherish it all our life. Though we aren't BF-GF anymore, we have decided nothing would change with regards to our friendship..we were and will always be best friends. We both hope that you continue to shower us with your love and support, cause we really need it during this rough time... "

" Though the reality of the situation has not hit us yet.. and we still act like a couple .. heh heh..its tough for a two year learning process to be unlearned in a day.. The people who should know about this breakup have already been told so via sms.. We would really like it if the word doesn't leak out... and also if we don't talk about it when we are together..maybe in the future if situations are ok..we might give it another shot, but we'll have to wait and watch "

" The reason for the breakup is a pretty personal thing.. atleast as far as ***** is concerned.. so we'll share it with you guys sometime when both of us are comfortable with it..till then we both hope you all understand and trust our judgment on this matter.. Henry D once said "For those who love.. time is eternity.." so both of us will wait.. See what the future has in store for us.. Until then.. the memories of our times together will always accompany us.. always giving us hope... "


The worst part is that we were supposed to celebrate our anniversary today..irony always has a funny way of showing itself...But the support our friends showed us was dazzling (More than 100msgs and counting...and several calls)... Anyway here's hoping for the best.. all good things must come to an end...La Bruyere once said "At the beginning and at the end of love, the two lovers are embarrassed to find themselves alone"... but no we are not alone...we never will...

Due to budget cuts, the light at the end of the tunnel will be out.

Yeah its here.. Value Added Tax.. Don’t really know what it means, or how/If it will affect me… but as long as fuel prices remain the same, who cares. ( One third of population cares I guess, cause they are on strike )
I really don’t understand how this taxing system works.. all I know is u get Rs X as your pay (on paper).. you get Rs X/2 cash. Now that’s what I don’t like.. I mean what am I paying for actually? The stupid, corrupt, government officials? Those people want yearly tax on roads ( now its once and for all when you buy a vehicle ) I mean with the pathetic condition of the roads, you (government, not Blog reader) should actually pay me to ride in such conditions.. Now they are going to charge me on every transaction I make with my credit card? What rubbish is that.. I get charged to use my Rs X/2..hey atleast I save up money on parking, I mean now that the government ( full credit to mayor ) decided to scrap parking fees( the Burglar special ) , hey atleast we all can ride on our unicycle.. There was this time, they were going to tax people for having generators, Morons can’t provide 24/7 power supply and for those people who want it, their reply TAX. And here’s the best thing you’ll ever hear, I ( my family ) got penalized for using less water, so they charged 20 Rs. for low usage of water.. that’s not tax, yet its too pissing off.It's not the money,but, the fact that they can charge us for something like that.
But these electricity officials ought to go jump in a well… I’ll dig it personally… or better yet, let them just walk on one of our roads.. one of the million( no exaggeration here ) potholes will take care of them.
You got to hand it to our city officials, the all nighters they pull when a foreign dignitary comes is worth applauding… As long as we are killing people, next in line are bus drivers, they not only should be killed, but after death their bodies should be burned ! ( Don’t they do that already? ) … You will never see more reckless driving. And who can forget the sweet ol Auto ( taxi ) drivers… their bodies should be suffocated … in like a air tight chamber..

I don’t know what I am cribbing about… I am not earning… I don’t pay tax.. but seeing people suffering, that I cannot take.Or maybe it’s the fact that I am just pissed..Maybe they'll remove tax by the time i start earning...

Anyone can give up smoking, but it takes a real man to face cancer.

Recently at a party I had been to I tried my hand at smoking, not because I had a craving for nicotine or something, its just that everyone was, hot guys, hot girls, semi hot guys, semi hot girls, you get the point right? I did the most logical thing to do, my effort to fit right in, I asked my brother to give me the cigarette he was smoking, for half a minute I just held it between my fingers, didn’t know what to do, how to smoke, nobody had tutored me that, my conscience fighting a losing battle.
Finally I moistened the tip, took a deep one in, my body wanted to do the most rational thing. I wanted to cough. I never wanted to do anything more in my life at that moment, I just wanted to let out the smoke that filled my lungs… but that would be so “uncool”… I kept it in… exhaled slowly… tried to make a ring of smoke ( that’s the cool part about smoking by the way )… least I should say, that it’s the effort that counts.
Half the cigarette was over… with only one actual contact with my lips. My brother who was quietly observing my facial reactions passed me water ( so sweet of him ), but my friend this ego guy, wouldn't let me…
A few years back I wouldn’t let go my principles no matter what, I never would succumb to the pressure of the outside “cool” world… I would never smoke come what may! But hey, times change, I still don’t know what made me do it, I still don’t know why I did it… but the bottom line is that I smoked…
How disappointed my better half would be when I tell… so I decided not to … made my bro take a oath that he would carry it to his grave or mine whichever came first… but that night before I said "goodnight, I love you", the general routine… it came out… “Honey, I smoked… but just once”… a long silence later… “Its ok honey… just promise you wont do I again… swear on me”… so I did… and hey I pledge to my blog readers “as long as there is oxygen in my lungs I promise not to smoke a cigarette again”
Now cigars and pipes … that’s a totally different thing.